For the last 5+ months I have been fighting God over a relationship.
I didn’t want to give it over to Him. It was mine, it was lifelong, one of my closest friends…
I struggled so much spiritually and mentally that whole time.
The relationship was controlling me and my actions. I couldn’t do anything the person didn’t like for fear of being an object of their anger.
I hate people being mad at me, so naturally I tried to appease them by doing what they wanted.
That included not being friendly or having other friends to keep them happy.
Their insecurity was creeping over into my life and keeping me bound.
I was so afraid to say anything, I didn’t want to hurt them; I didn’t want to hurt me.
“The only thing that satisfies is when we are completed in Christ.”
I knew it would hurt if I distanced myself from them, I didn’t want to.
It was stressing me out so bad, I was at my whits end.
I was begging God for a solution, but I wanted it the way I wanted it. Well that’s not how God works.
This last weekend at Decision Days Bro. Swinnea preached “It’s gunna hurt.”
I knew that it was directed from God, to me. I had to surrender it all.
I had to give Him that relationship, and allow Him to have first place in my life.
It hurt, really, really, bad. I didn’t want to: but I had to.
This is the first step in my further growth in the Lord.
“God never tells us to do something that He won’t help us through. He’s always there with us all along the way.” (K.S)
This is going to be a hard journey, but I know God is with me and He’s the greatest friend I could ever have.
I would greatly appreciate prayers for me, and for my friend.
God is able.
Joshua 1:9 ; Psalm 18:2 ; Psalm 71:1 ❤️